New Year, Same Bullshit

I've never been one for resolutions because I don't work well under pressure, but something about this year makes me wanna change all the things. And I hate change? 

These past six months have been nothing but change. Which like, I guess is the same for most people. I'm so thrilled to be in a new environment but with that comes isolation. Clearly my comfort zone wasn't working since I was more mentally unstable than I had been since freshman year of college. 

But also no one tells you how hard it is to make friends as an adult? I've had my gang of weirdos for a while now and I love them. Opening up my brand of weird is just like a crap bag of awkward and Imma be real honest up in here- it sucks ass. It sucks all the ass. Do you know how many strange looks I've gotten over the last few months because no one here understands my humor? Y'all, it's the worst. Like I'm just bad in general at opening up to people and so with new people it just makes the interactions that much more taxing. 

And I get it. You're all reading this like, 'bish, you moved there. y o u did this to yourself'. Which, yes correct- I did decide to move across the ocean and start over. But it was either that or like pull a Chris McCandless and ya girl doesn't do nature. So here we are!

Am I not allow to complain about my self made situation? Because if not y'all might want to move on to another blog. Full disclosure- by complain I mean process through my ~feelings~ on line for everyone to enjoy!